Ever feel sick to the pit of your stomach
with anxiety? Can’t get out of bed, over think everything, worrying and
stressing until your head hurts? Yes, me too. I feel a little like that recently.
I have spoken about anxiety and depression on here before, and I guess this
should just be recognised as one of my “bad days”, where I usually just won’t
get up and or do anything. At least I can be proud I did get up though and have
been getting up and battling on. A first for me to be honest.
I am a very sensitive person and I think I have
a tendency to worry and sometimes cause problems that are not even there – I know
there are some problems that are there though.
I understand that not everyone in the world
gets on or will get on, but I think people need to be aware that being
considerate goes a long way.
Perhaps at this present time, you aren’t
getting along with a friend, family member or a work colleague. It can be extremely
hard, when someone projects that negative energy onto you whether you have
deserved it or not - It can be upsetting and cruel. Maybe you have a million
other stresses going on too or are unwell. If you are like me, you end up
punishing yourself, like me sitting here writing this, feeling sorry for myself
and thinking I am worthless. I hope my head is not a washing machine tonight, I
have a sense it will be in overdrive.
I am trying to tell myself - go put the
kettle on girl, watch some Netflix and chill, things will be brighter in the
morning. If you want a change in something, change them. Instead of me lying
here being upset, I think I am going to follow the PMA (positive mental
attitude) rule and be proactive.
If you too are having a bit of a struggle, take
my advice (I wish I could take this advice) - smile, stay calm, be nice and be
the best you. Try your hardest, be positive, work hard and stay focused. Don’t
let the buggers get you down, they should at least have the balls to confront
you instead of bitching behind your back. Be the mature one, not the child. No
matter the situation you will come out of this a stronger and a better person.
Be wary of your actions and how it impacts others, always be kind, don’t be a
push over, you don’t need negativity or people like that in your life. If where
needed say sorry to people, keep looking up at the stars not down in the
drains.
Here is to tomorrow.
Love Chlobo’s Closet
Xxx
